Today was tough
I needed to make desicions
And then take action
But I didn't know what to do
And i worried and worried
Actually, probably for nothing
I went outside, to the balcony
It was afternoon
And then my cousin (10) came after
And he was all smiling, I was grumpy
I knew he wanted to play volleyball
He was bored of all these adult things
That we talked about all day with my parents
I didn't know but I too was, bored...
Then I looked at him
And he looked at me
He went inside
I turned around
Began to think
WAIT A DAMN SECOND
I AM DOING THE SAME THING MY OLDER COUSINS DID
WHICH I'D PROMISED I WOULDN'T DO TO MY YOUNGER COUSINS WHEN I GROW UP
I now understood why they were sad or angry
And that these times were tough
But my cousin will never be 10 again!!
He will grow too...
I run straigt to him, to his room
I opened the door, very ironically slowly
He looked at me, sad
I slowy closed the door.....BUT then opened it very fast and WIDE and jumped to him
And said "yeah, wanna go and play volleyball? We can take our brothers with us too."
He was so happy
We played, and then went swimming
I was lauging and smiling all the time
When I went home my dad was stressed
And I wasn't
It stressed HIM
So I began to stress again
We argued, and I said
"No, I'm not gonna be like this anymore
Like YOU
I wanna be smiling and not worrying too much
I don't wanna think about this (Ikea, bed, school) anymore
We did everything we can, and now we wait 'till tomorrow
Tomorrow will show us!
And please act with patience
Cuz I don't have patience to be anxious anymore"
I wish I had cousins like me
Mine would be sad, and go to their room
Then I would be sad
And no one would cheer me up...
