Constantly, like acceleration
An object has an acceleration
Only when its speed is in change
I am fast sometimes
Or I was very fast
Now I slowed down
Before I would cry
I couldn't stop it, I would want to
But I couldn't
These days I can't cry
I want to, but I can't
Not longer than some seconds
Then I ask,
What is happening?
Am I changing again?
And I got the answer
When I opened this blog
YES, I AM
Every time I write here I change
Or I am in a phase of acceleration
Things feel not real
I don't know what to do
I am overthinking and it
Lead to, me being overwhelmed
If i could just let my mind be free
Just for once, without a care
I care too much about everything
I wish I was more careless
But I see people and their carelessness
And feel like I just can't be
another domino brick like them
I gotta be different and not fit in
Because I can't, litteraly
And it's totally fine, but I feel lost
Am I making a wrong desicion
While I fall in love?
Will there be difficulties...
Not simple, but core differences
That will lead us to break up?
Beacuse, THERE ARE CORE DIFFERENCES
Like our beliefs
And our lifestyle
Actually we have the same lifestyle
But not the same ambitions
Or the same stubbornness
I work work work
He sleeps, chills, eats
I eat work work chill sleep
He works eats works sleeps
We start to be like eachother
And it's a good thing
But I am questioning everything
I don't know if this is a good desicion
I might never know though
Do I love him?
Yes, with my everything.
What is this voice inside my head?
It is me, asking reasonable questions
I should listen, but I don't need to worry.
As I said, These days I am changing
Just like every day
All the time
That's life isn't it?
