Sunday, December 29, 2024

little rice in the brain

These days I am changing
Constantly, like acceleration
An object has an acceleration 
Only when its speed is in change
I am fast sometimes
Or I was very fast
Now I slowed down

Before I would cry 
I couldn't stop it, I would want to
But I couldn't
These days I can't cry
I want to, but I can't
Not longer than some seconds

Then I ask,
What is happening?
Am I changing again?
And I got the answer 
When I opened this blog

YES, I AM

Every time I write here I change
Or I am in a phase of acceleration

Things feel not real
I don't know what to do
I am overthinking and it 
Lead to, me being overwhelmed
If i could just let my mind be free
Just for once, without a care
I care too much about everything
I wish I was more careless
But I see people and their carelessness
And feel like I  just can't be 
another domino brick like them 
I gotta be different and not fit in
Because I can't, litteraly
And it's totally fine, but I feel lost

Am I making a wrong desicion
While I fall in love?
Will there be difficulties...
Not simple, but core differences 
That will lead us to break up?
Beacuse, THERE ARE CORE DIFFERENCES

Like our beliefs
And our lifestyle
Actually we have the same lifestyle
But not the same ambitions
Or the same stubbornness

I work work work
He sleeps, chills, eats
I eat work work chill sleep 
He works eats works sleeps

We start to be like eachother
And it's a good thing
But I am questioning everything
I don't know if this is a good desicion
I might never know though

Do I love him?
Yes, with my everything.
What is this voice inside my head?
It is me, asking reasonable questions
I should listen, but I don't need to worry.

As I said, These days I am changing
Just like every day
All the time
That's life isn't it?

Friday, November 1, 2024

Heartbeating

I feel like days go so slow in your absence
But they pass as fast as normal
It feels like I am wasting them tough
Every day without you is a waste of time
But I won't say it to you
 I'll just write it down here
And wait for your return

I wish there was a way to teleport me
Into your big soft arms
Where I feel most at peace
I wish i couls kiss your eyes
Your deep ocean blue eyes
And I wish I could kiss your lips
Your strawberry pinkish red lips

Untill I see you again
All I can do is try to enjoy life
While I ache to talk to you
While I ache to hug you
While I ache to kiss you
And the most heartbreaking 
And heartwarming thing is
That you feel the same...




Tuesday, October 29, 2024

Missing

In English we say: 
I miss you and 
I can't wait to see you.


But in poetry we say:
The days stretch like 
how the sea stretches endlessly 
when traveling by the sea 
Each one aching with your absence. 

Each one aching without you.

My heart holds its breath, 
counting down moments until I get to see you again,
When the horizon fades, I see you, and
When distance fades, we are whole.

Saturday, October 12, 2024

everything is entropy

I thought I could be better
But I realized that I can't
Maybe being myself is enough
I don't need to be more

Sometimes you got to let it go
Let it flow cuz' life is not
A thousand years for us humans
We only roughly have a hundred

We should live it as good as we can
The circumstances are weird
Some people are born in the middle
Of a war and some are born into
The richest families in the world
I don't know why the world is so unfair
Why it's so cruel and sometimes meaningless

But that's why I wanna believe in a afterworld
There must be one, because I don't like this one
I hate this world and love it so much
It is good but very bad at the same time
Can be very cruel but very heavenly too
And I don't like it
But I like it

I just want everyone to behave themselves
And don't kill other people
Or just live life simple
And smile and live you know!
So many people shoot other people
WHY?
SO MANY KILL EACHOTHER FOR WHAT?
ThEiR hOnOr well FUCK THEIR HONOR
I don't understand the concept or the need of it!

Can't we just live this short life and pass in peace...
Maybe nothing can be better...
Neigher me nor the world...
Entropy says that everything goes towards chaos
A system that is in order will always
ALWAYS SEEK FOR CHAOS

Maybe that's why
Maybe thats why...

Sunday, September 22, 2024

Sometimes I want a house that
Has the best location
And that has a wonderful view
Because I would love to see
The same amazing view
Every day I wake up
Right?

But also
I would get bored after a while
It would be normal for me 
After a while
So actually
Absence of that view
Would make me want to go out
And when I see an amazing view
I would be amazed more

I think I can connect this with
Being with people you love
Sometimes you need some distance
To appreciate eachother more
When you meet up again...

I miss him so much
But it will be worth it 
When we meet again

When i'll meet his amazing view
I will be amazed more than I ever would
Because I miss him...


Saturday, September 14, 2024

Min amethyststein

Du er som en amethyststein
Folk tror du er bare en vanlig stein
Men hvis de kan finne 
det som er inn i steinen,
Det som er inn i deg

Det skjønne som skinner
Da skjønner de hva du er
Hvem du er og hva du gjør
Fordi du er som en amethyststein
Du skinner bare for
De som finner deg 

Thursday, September 12, 2024

Ruby and Sapphire

The way you looked at me
With your sky blue eyes

They said many things
Some i understood
But some i didn't
You're mysterious
And I want to understand

I think we just need time
And I don't want to forget
Your beautiful smile
So I will do everything
To make you smile.

You're sapphire
To my ruby

And I want you
To be happy ...

little rice in the brain

These days I am changing Constantly, like acceleration An object has an acceleration  Only when its speed is in change I am fast sometimes O...