Please let me see, please let me in...

If quantum entanglement is real

Which is when two particles act as if they communicate 

FASTER than the SPEED OF LIGHT

So when one of those particles spins up

We know that the other one is spinning down

Even from a very long distance

Particles are communicating and acting

As if they communicate with one another

There is evidence, that this is a real thing

John Clauser, Alain Aspect, and Anton Zeilinger

They earned the Noble Prize for Physics in 2022 

For working and succeeding in this experiment

Therefore

Despite the practical challenges;

If we can send one of those particles into a black hole

And the other one is held here on earth

Maybe?

Maybe, we could measure what is happening in the black hole

By measuring what is happening with the particles here on earth

Maybe we could get a glimpse of what is happening in there?

Love license

I like to find kind sweetness in little things

Like when I jump on to the school bus

And the driver waits for passengers to sit

He won't drive untill everyone is settled

There is some kind of love in this behavior

I am a student and I met infinite amount of 

Busdrivers and taxi drivers

There are some that won't even say "hi"

There are some that won't smile at you

There are some that won't wait for you to sit down

There are some that looks angry

Finally there are some that loves their job

I understand why drivers can be grumpy

It is not an easy job after all

I don't judge them if they do their job

Just to make some money 

It is their right to have this job

But life would be a better place if

They could be what they ACTUALLY wanted to be

Because they would smile, say "hi" and wait untill I sit down

If they liked their job

What is love?

I have been asking this to myself for a long time 

What is love?

I am not sure but I think I found the answer 

Love is not constant

Everyone cant define love

Or no one can understand it

Because it is a variable

It changes from person to person

It is all a matter of perspective

And I found out what love is

In my perspective

And I warn you, that you may not understand

What I mean by what I will say

Because it is my opinion

About love

SO

Love is; 

When I feel that someone actually gives a damn about me

When they make time for me, even if they are busy...

(they don't even need to meet me...or they don't need to message me... don't misunderstand this... I just need to know that they think about me... naturally because they care)

When they try to communicate with me and ask me questions about myself

When they ask me if I am hungry or if I need something from the grocery store

When they try to be the best version of themselves, but also very vulnerable 

When they look at me, in the eyes...and explain that they are alright without a word

When they hug me without a sexual desire, just because they CARE and because I am a PERSON, not a toy

When I feel like I can be the real me with them, the aggressive and gauche me

When I can be like a child with them, and when I don't even have the idea of them judging me, because they don't make me feel judged

When they can stop their physical desires, but listen to their heart and soul...and let me hear it

When I can feel free to argue with them, knowing that we will both say sorry at the end

When I can say all the bad words to them and they can say all the bad words to me...but we always try to fix those words with good ones...

When they take responsibility for little things

When they enjoy the little things we do together, maybe just because we do it together

Love is real when they say "why?" in response to my "I don't love you!" 

This, happened just once.. 

And I don't think it will happen again.

Maybe something similar, something familiar.

But no.

Real love comes once in a lifetime, right?

It did come to me, but I wasted it.

Now it's time to suffer.

Or maybe I am lucky enough to ACTUALLY meet someone (not find, I am TIRED) who actually gives a damn about me...?

We will see in the future.

And this is the closure.