Expectations

Sometimes I feel like I am good at nothing

I am not good enough to apply to a study I like

Or I am not good enough to be an engineer

My father expects me to be an engineer

My mom still wants me to be a doctor

Honestly the only thing I want is time...

But my dad thinks IT IS IDIOTIC TO TAKE A YEAR OFF

I know that I will be a burden to them if I stay, because they want to move to the first floor of our house and rent our current house at the second floor to others, so that they can earn some money.

Honestly I don't even wanna stay 

I wanna study and then get a job

I want to live in south france

I want to work there, thats why 

My dad wants me to be a

Marine Engineer

But I am just so skeptical to it

It doesn't even make me happy

Thinking about, me working by a ship

Although I love them...

I just had this dream that

I would be an astronom and stuff...

But I guess it is just a dream afterall

I don't think being an astronom is what I think it is

I like being helpful to people

I like math 

I like calculations and logic

Why not Ships?

I would travel the world, I mean

This is kind of a dream ✨️

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Maybe I should try harder

You should lower your expectations

I am no way no genius

I was never a harmonie Granger

Teach me how to be okay
I don't wanna downplay my emotions

I wanna be okay...

I wanna be okay....