Well..

there is a friend of mine

we are not so close

I always knew her as a cool person

I always wanted to be friends with her

Now I kinda am friends with her 

And some guy friends of hers

And her guy friend said that she is going through some stuff right now

I didn't know ANYTHING

I DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING

I DIDN'T KNOW A FUCKING THING

She has and had suicidal thoughts

SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL

She had them for years 

SHE CUT HERSELF

SHE USED DRUGS TO KILL HERSELF

SHE WAS AT THE HOSPITAL LAST WEEK

I DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING

I DIDN'T KNOW A FUCKING THING

my hand are shaking while writing this

i don't have an idea about how to help her

And then my guy friend says that he 

HE DROPPED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL 

BECAUSE OF HER...

'CAUSE SHE NEEDED SOMEONE 

WHO COULD TAKE CARE OF HER

I WAS LIKE "WHAAAAAAAAAT THEE-??!!"

I cried 

Alot

In my car

Last night

I had a breakdown

but IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER

WHAT MATTERS IS "HOW CAN I HELP HER?"

HOW?

I DON'T WANT HER TO DIE

THE THOUGHT MAKES ME WANNA SOB